" Be who you are & say what you feel because those
who mind dont matter & those who matter dont mind "

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Hi, my name is jesslyn :D I'm a extremist, sometimes crazy, hyper & random.. Sometimes emo & quiet. I first cried on 260992.& I ♥ music & japanese food

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Friends:
angela* amanda* bena* jeslyn* joelyn* joelle* kaixin* pohlern* shuhao* yujun* yz* ophelia* nxsa* mira*

Others:
shuhui*

I'm a fan of:
cheesie* holly jean* xiaxue*

memories
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September 2011
Feel like giving up..
Saturday, September 3, 2011, 10:21 PM

Sometimes, I wish that Im able to not care or not love you as much cause it just seems like you don not care and that you just dont love me so why get tgt with me in the first place? If you have hidden agenda, you are just plain selfish. I told you that I would be sleeping soon but you rather game; I even told you twice. Anw, later you will just give me excuses like you never hear the vibration or etc, like always. Why is it that I can always reply your sms almost immediately & you can't? Because I care enough to constantly check every 5 min & change the mode to the one with music @ max volume when I am in a crowded or loud place. But you don't. When it is something that bothers you, you can set alarm clock but when its accompanying me in the morning, you don't. Just shows me how important I am to you. If your game or other things in your life is so important and more inportant than me, just leave me. Let your mood affect you, everyone around you & even in the things you do. Why is my sis's bf able to talk to my sis so much & meet her when she want to? Because he cares for her and love her & why can their r/s be pure? I dont want to say le, you got a brain, if you care enough, think.

Ps: Im tired of crying so frequently & even if I cry, I must cry secretly so that I wont hurt or make my family upset because of me.




Friday, August 19, 2011, 2:12 AM

Took this from holly jean's blog. Found some parts quite true so I decided to high-light the parts that I found to be true.



Good night [:




Thursday, August 18, 2011, 8:38 PM






I love reading
Tuesday, August 9, 2011, 12:05 AM

Read a few write-ups by holly jean.

One - http://lifestyle.www.ns.sg/fit-life/get-her/hollyjean/psycho-female-behaviour-explained & found it quite true.

Here's a paragraph tt i extracted..

" We burst into tears easily
If you cannot point out a mistake or criticise her without risking her getting hurt and going teary eyed, it's not psychosis. It's just upbringing. Women are socially conditioned to be emotional. Both men and women speak louder to male than female babies; they are softer and express more "cooing" with girls. Baby girls are caressed and stroked more than boys. If you snap at us, or speak to us harshly, expect that it is going to upset us (so, don't do it).

By the way, if you read the ancient Greek and Roman classics of heroes like Odysseus and Hercules or Jason, you will be surprised to learn how easily these lion-hearted men burst into tears when their comrades died or they lost a fight or the gods threw down lightning bolts at them. Real heroes of ancient times were like women, they were not afraid to get emotional or cry!"

Two - http://lifestyle.www.ns.sg/fit-life/get-her/hollyjean/to-men-who-cheat

Dear Sirs,

My mother always told me - Cheaters never prosper.

And I've come to realise as I grew older and wiser, that the laws of averages and probability ascertain that you will always get found out. If math is not your thing, then believe in the laws of Karma - All things done in darkness will eventually come to light. It's quite simply, not worth what you will lose when you get caught.

Cheating (sexual or emotional) is never okay, no matter what you tell yourself. Your wife is a witch? You're stressed at work? That slut totally came on to you? You had too much to drink?

These are all excuses. And when there is a will... there will always be a convenient excuse to back it up.

Even when you tell yourself “it’s better this way” or “I love my partner but I feel like I’m missing something”…..you’re lying to yourself. If you’re not in love anymore or are unhappy, deal with it. The last thing you should do is to string women along because you are afraid to make a difficult decision.

You may think—if only you knew MY situation. Well, I do. As someone who has been on both sides of that proverbial coin, I can say with confidence that cheating is selfish & cowardly. It’s weak and a complete cop out. You don't have to be like that.

You aren't being a martyr by staying married for the sake of your kids but keeping a secret mistress on the side. If I know you, and I probably do (I know many men who cheat), you have somehow managed to separate the two things completely. You believe that what is going on with you and your mistress has nothing to do with your wife and kids.

No matter how little you think your wife knows, how careful you believe you are, how justified you think you are for what you are doing... it still does not make it right. Try fixing the problem in your marriage instead. It's never easy but you have to try.

What values are you teaching your kids? Instead of being a cheat, teach your kids that life is sometimes about making hard choices, to do the right thing even when it isn’t easy. Teach them how to be honest, responsible and most importantly teach them to treat people with respect.

Don't be a cheat. Be a man. Step up to the plate and either make a choice to heal your marriage or leave.

Yours,
HJ

Thats it for today [: Shall only post 2.

To read more, go to..
http://lifestyle.www.ns.sg/fit-life/get-her








Day 1: My current relationship
Monday, August 8, 2011, 11:10 PM



We might not have a perfect relationship, but I feel that what we are having now is special. Sometimes being with you feels like a dream & i dont wish to wake up & realise that what we are having now is unreal & fake.

I think you are different as even though you are similar to many in those aspects, you told me that you are slowly changing & I believe you. To add on, I can see me in you (sometimes), you let me rant & be long-winded, you think that im cute when im silly or dumb in the eyes of others, you let me ask you questions over & over again, without getting too irritated & you are the first guy in my life to talk about the future with me (though you did this with others too in the past, at least you are showing me that you want to have a future with me)

I hope that nothing goes wrong ♥

Will blog about day 2 soon! [:







30 days challenge
Sunday, August 7, 2011, 2:02 AM

Hihi [:

I have decided to do this 30 day challenge so that I can fill up this empty place of mine. & It sounded fun too.



Wish me luck! ^^







Back to Blog
Sunday, July 31, 2011, 7:36 PM

Decided to blog again [: Been so long since I last blogged. I'm getting busier as time passes & I hope that I will be able to manage my time properly and finish my over-due work asap.

Oh, by the way, please help me click the AD below.. Thanks [:






Blog soon!




I dont want to be unfair to you.. But i dont want to be unfair to myself as well.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011, 8:36 PM



[In terms of spr]




Have not been updating again, jialut.
Thursday, March 10, 2011, 10:50 PM

Hihi, back again [: Heres a short update of my holidays and my 'to do list'.

What i have done in the past weeks of holiday:
1) Go out w obf
2) Apsn project; SHARE
3) Met yujun once & had HTHT/update of her life w her

To do list:
1) spend more time w obf
2) meet yujun
3) meet kaixin
4) meet amira
5) FOP
6) complete other school activities
7) stay happy

Will try to update again, soon. BS;blog-soon [:

Gg to sleep soon, night night ♥




Friday, February 25, 2011, 11:22 PM