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Hi, my name is jesslyn :D I'm a extremist, sometimes crazy, hyper & random.. Sometimes emo & quiet. I first cried on 260992.& I ♥ music & japanese food

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Friday, February 25, 2011, 11:22 PM







Like a roller-coaster
1:47 PM

Hmm, im still unsure of my reaction if i were to see you later.. What should i do? Why do i still cry when it is said to be settled? Do you think ytd caused us to drift apart?

Maybe, i just need more time.

Update: Had fun today [: Everything seems normal, awesome ♥




Awesome Day ♥
Tuesday, February 22, 2011, 10:12 PM

Went to vivo w obf today [:

Watch 'no strings attached', ate yummy snacks as lunch; love the 'dip dip sticks', & ate icecream at ben & jerry. Obf was sweet when he bought green milk tea for me (: Was like, tada! suprise!~ hahas.

Feels lucky to be obf's ogf.

Just some thoughts.. I wonder what I can do so tt obf will feel happy.. Like genuinely happy from the bottom of his heart. To be honest, im already trying my best.. in my opinion, but i cant seem to touch his heart. Maybe.. it just takes time..

Sometimes, I keep having doubts.. I wonder y im like tt, im not so careful or scared in the past.. Hope tt time will put my mind in peace.

Before i go, i just wanna say.. 'i love the way u make me smile & laugh like a child, though its not long, its those moments tt i'll always cherish. '

Gg to sleep soon, good night [:

[Update @ 10:44pm]
Im selected for FOP 2011! Yay!~ Awesomeness <3




Saturday, February 19, 2011, 11:05 AM

Hello [:

Its being 15 days since the last update.. was busy w cny, ut3 & other changes in my life. Hence, the lack of update.. Shall elaborate more when i get a chance to!

Hmm, i wonder why are people okay with premarital sex.. & why can't a r/s be pure & clean? is it that hard?! Grr~

I know that boys (& some girls) are like tt but im sure that they can control it right? Well, im not sure.. im not a guy afterall.. But, thats what i heard from other girls (& guys).

Hmm.. i oso wonder if it is possible to have a pure & clean r/s in this century (now). is it considered deviant? But then when the first couple who had premarital sex then, must be deviant.. and premarital sex has became a norm in teens & young adults. I wonder if it is possible to revert back? Where showing abit more skin is seen as in-decent.

Maybe im just old-fashioned. But i really wonder if its possible anot. Will be great of i could have a pure & clean r/s till i get married with 'the one'. Even though, in the past.. ya. But it can be said that i hate it so i dont wish history to repeat itself. Really wish so.

But what i want is afterall, what I want.. How about my obf and his 'needs'? It is said that a guy would respect a girl and not do what she doesn't want to.. But then, how about the guy? if the guy respect the girl and controls.. Shouldn't the grirl do sth back or give in alittle? But then again, whats the limit? It depends on the girl. But, what if she doesn't want to do anything or does something and have mixed feelings afterwards? Will the guy be sensitive enough to know & comfort her?

Will the constant up & down of emotions ruin the r/s? Will the lack of intimate stuff ruin the r/s. Well, in my opinion, there can be 101 reasons y a couple can't last but it still boil down to how the couple handle it tgt.

But how about foreplay? I will say no before marriage as foreplay oso means before sex. But again, theres the boy-girl conflict again (refer to paragraph above x2). Also, if you do this w someone & he becomes an ex.. than what happens? you will feel used & threw away. tt y i dislike it.. oh, well, life is so confusing.

Hmm.. but if a couple managed to remain pure & clean, wouldn't their mariage night (life) be extra special? If one has seen or experience everything.. than it wouldn't be special, would it?

Okay, i guess im done ranting & said what i wanted to say. Update soon (about my life), after monday's UT.

Byebye ^^








Friday, February 4, 2011, 9:57 PM




9:47 PM